Well, I think Im just an asshole. My husband has this friend, who's a girl. And She got in contact with him and they have been emailing back and forth. He has known this girl for along time and they were at one time best friends. And he kinda had a thing for her at some point....And knowing this I kinda got upset. Not really jealous at all just freaked out. Now bear in mind that I have issues with relationships. my first ex cheated on me...my first fiance cheated and then left me for a real good friend of mine...not to mention a string of less than faithful men in my life. So needless to say i felt threatened by this woman. Im sure she's really pretty and thin too...neither of which i am. My hubby tells me that Im the one he's with and I shouldnt worry, but its a matter of past experiance. And I do trust him. I just cant get past all those old feelings and memories coming back to haunt me. I really want to be liked by his friends and get along with them all...Im just not sure if I can trust myself to be pleasant or control the smartass in me. Im sure that this girl and I would get along, we have alot in common...I just cant get past my issues...am I wrong to be freaked out? I do feel bad about making this such an issue in our lives...I just never dealt with any issues. I really hold no grudges against my ex's...I think that I felt so heart broken because I feel Im not good enough to be loved and still feel kinda that way. perhaps if i were happier with myself i could get pasr it all...That is something I have already put into motion...now its just waiting for everything to get here.
Ok im just rambling...but i needed to get that all out...
LOL. hehe. i wasnt expecting a comment from you. so i just ignored the message everytime i was on. lol. most of the time i get a ...hey cool. or nice. or something lame, that didnt take much brain power to come up with. glad to see one from you. I love you too honey. thanks. :*:X
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